iya.. ga semua orang nanyain gimana keadaan gw.. ga semua orang juga ngerti kalo gw butuh "waktu"..
tapi intinya.. buat seseorang yang suka ngirimin message ke fs gw, dan kyanya terlalu khawatir ma keadaan gw, gw baik2 aja kooo…. ga seburuk yang loe kira.. gw masih bisa senyum.. masih bisa ketawa.. masih bisa main sama temen2 gw.. oke..? so please.. jangan terlalu khawatir sama gw..
it is painfull, very.. but I can handle myself..
it’s been more than a week.. but the pain still remain as it is.. lots of my fellow friends said that i’m a strong girl.. am i really..? am i strong everytime i shed my tear? am i really..?? if so, why can’t i handle this terrible feeling..???
there are memories you’d like to forget.. there are memories you’d like to keep.. my memories with him are the memories i’d like to keep.. even though it hurts remembering them..
every song reminds me of him.. every view reminds me of him.. or.. hmm.. maybe it’s just my heart, wanting me to remember him.. it’s just me, wanting to torture myself with the memories..
my cell phone is right by my bed.. i try not to touch it, i try to ignore it, i don’t bring it along with me anymore (even when i got out of the house), i just won’t let myself gets too much hope of getting a text from him, i won’t let myself text him.. huff… that’s very tiring.. sometimes i have to "hide" it from my eyes.. sometimes i just turn it off…
don’t talk about marriage or children with me.. please.. you don’t know how painfull it is for me to be "slapped" like that..
God.. please take away this pain.. let my heart rests in peace.. let me.. rest in peace..
