PiPie LuTcHu

hmmph.. i’m so confused with my own heart at the moment.. i don’t know what i’m feeling.. damn…!!!

when i got back from siaware, i realized that there’s two people caring about me more than just as a friend.. but i just can’t decide what to do.. i am close to one of them right now, but i have no idea where this relationship will end after 30 days time.. he is my close friend now.. very close actually.. and i know i care for him, but as a what?? a new person in my heart where someone used to be?? or only as a very close friend like he’s been?

i’ve been hurt.. real bad.. and even though i’m a lot better right now, the pain is still somewhere deep inside of me.. certain songs reminds me of how he dumped me and that pain will come out crawling from the hideout.. and when it happens, i just stay quiet, i look down, my heart aches, and tears will flow.. and now.. why should i believe in love? why should i believe any guy who said that he loves me or care about me?? WHY SHOUL I???? what makes them different from the guy who dumped me? why should they be any different? what guarantees that they’d stay?? their words??? hell with it!! i won’t believe it!!!

help me find my way back into love…

if you’re serious, please just go to my parents.. i really don’t know what to do..

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